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[24 Jun 2008|11:09pm] |
this fucking blog is driving me crazy because im bored with it. i want to get a fancy ass wordpress thinger cuz stuff is BIGGER and COOLER on it and crap like that. mabye ill do that. hmmm.... like how notebooks change so do the websites. like sand through the hourglass.....
oh hell ill do it.
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[24 Jun 2008|06:18pm] |
three days ago the plan was to go straight to vancouver. planting ended. i couldve gotten another job. but i didnt. it seemed like a little too much of a tiny hassle than just going to vancouver.
so i was going to do that. and then pat said 'hey torie i need you to drive a truck back up to pg.' i said 'uh. okay'
and i didnt want to come. i felt as though i'd be regressing. and not because of this city per se but because of who it makes me. the person that left prince george is not the same one that came back. i remembered so much about myself being away. and i am not weak.
i am not weak. i will not be judged and i will not be controlled.
that being said. i feel myself being sucked into the ways of the past. things i used to put up with i dont want to put up with anymore.
i bought a bus ticket out of here today. im leaving on the 29th and ill come back at the end of august to move my things to vancouver.
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[08 Jun 2008|07:06pm] |
so. spencer and kyle and i got arrested. for mischief. it was awesome. i got cuffed and everything. cuz we climbed on a roof that we should not have been on. radcore.
we had a lovely conversation with the cops about prince george though. and how mr pg is made out of a septic tank instead of actual logs.
today i couldnt motivate myself to actually do anything. so i had a lot of swearing and sitting on stumps.
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[05 Jun 2008|07:45pm] |
today it snowed. it snowed in the okanagan in june. snow.
other than being cold the day was pretty okay. spenny, anders, josie, lucas and i were the only 5 on a big block where burns and wet spots had to be planted.
at times the only thing that got me through was knowing that this was gonna be on tv tonight.
thats the plan. beer and tank girl. word
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[02 Jun 2008|11:35pm] |
holy hannah. what a total mindfuck of a day. my foreman is a wonderful person and i respect him to no end but sometimes he can be a bit outrageous with how he decides to motivate the crew.
i guess it worked though. i mean, i did quite well today.
and had a nice chat with pat afterwards on the walk back to the trucks. about planting and shit.
everything was going swimmingly better than the day that preceeded it until i got home and was told that i am basically a stow away and the big boss doesnt know im on the crew. and that im basically being hidden for a week or so. and then a shit storm will happen when the big boss finds out. he wanted a crew with a round number. and since i went to vancouver when the crew came back to kamloops, technically im not here.
i said "pat. should i just fucking go. i dont want to be a hassle and this seems like more trouble than its worth today" he said "no. i need you and youre staying. thats it"
so at least he actually is on my side.
a hug from spencer and some pot with him and kyle made things a bit better but the pep talk from scotty at ten thirty rocked.
yeehaw.
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[29 May 2008|11:28pm] |
i saw rob today! huzzah! we had a semi impromptu get together at roughly 830 in the pm tonight and much fun proceeded.
i fucking love that kid. and not just cuz i know he reads this but because he has the longest hair of anyone i know and he is a super rad time.
we found a treasure map.
and a rock with a loose tooth.
thats whatsup.
theres someone snoring in the bowels of my house and its almost making the walls shake.
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[27 May 2008|11:06pm] |
my poor family thinks i am abandoning them. and i suppose mabye i sort of am. not purposely of course. i would never do that.
just talking to my dad today made me realize that they are afraid. the way im living right now is unfirmiliar to my mum and dad and they are having trouble dealing with it.
they try to understand but i take it as nagging and so whenever we end up seeing one another its a shit fit to the extreme. i need to learn to just shut up and have a good time with them. not that it should be something that requires learning.
im in vancouver. singing on wednesday. leaving to go back to kamloops on friday. i like vancouver in the spring/summer. i hate it in the winter. ew.
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[23 May 2008|10:33pm] |
its funny how much you remember when you are forced to be alone for a while. so many things have come clear. my confidence has boosted. i love being outside all day. this is the best job ive had in a long fuckin time.
my fingers are sore. im tanned as fuck. my body aches a little bit, but not enough to hurt me. its amazing.
today as we were on the block a bunch of water bombers were training. these giant planes flying overhead all day long. i pretended i was in a war zone or something. fightin a battle. slashing through slash and crap.
i caught a snake today.
i shoulda just kept planting but i sat on a stump with my new snake friend instead.
i'm thinking about sweden.
sweden sounds like a good place to go in the fall.
and a big sod off to everyone who told me i couldnt do it.
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[11 May 2008|09:02pm] |
I LOVE TREEPLANTING.
horray. i love being tired. the crew kicks ass. its a total cream show and i love that my brain just turns off when i do it. we got to kamloops and had to turn around and come back because the falkland area is still all unplantable. so cheese decided to plant in pg instead for a few weeks. which rocks. because i get to stay in town. today was my 4th day and i put in 800 trees. lindsay rocks. pat rocks. everything is awesome. yay!
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[01 May 2008|02:29am] |
packing. yet again. i feel sad to leave this house. i really liked it a lot. oh well. things only go so far as they are supposed to.
i baked a cake tonight. it was skylas going away fiesta and i made a chocolate cake with neon blue icing and the word 'ditto' written on it in pink. the night was fun. tlaked to people. i got to see emmett which ROCKED because that kid is so fucking amazing and we always have a wicked time together. i havent seen him since salmon arm last year when he and scotty and i played dance frisbee for hours and smoked waaaayyy too much pot. he looks like somehting off woodstock. his hair is ridiculous. anyways.
the party turned intoa shirtless event and everyone was running around in bras or nothing from the waist up. so many fucking hippies.
kept it real though, dancing to madonna.
went and saw scotty much too late. i felt awful about keeping him up waiting. and of couse i didnt think about that till it was too late. i can be really fucking inconsiderate at times and not even realize it. i dont like that about me at all. gotsa work on that one.
i came home and realized that there was a dog in my house. there was a note on the door and before i could finish reading it the dog was barking and bashing the door. darcie opened it and toma, neils dog, huge fucker, busts out and trotts around for a while. and then he took off. darcie assured me it would be fine (thomas looks like a wolf. hes pretty large). i went outside and sat on the steps for a bit and could hear toma across the street somewhere in the alley barking. hopefully hes alright. though i dont see how he couldnt be.
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[29 Apr 2008|12:55am] |
h&r block forced me to do my taxes solo. because they woulding give me the student rate.
so i wrestled with taxes for wwwaaaayyy too long tonight. but im getting hella money back. yeehaw.
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[28 Apr 2008|05:21pm] |
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i got a crack on my shit. but i woke up ultralate today. so i just feel groggy. i forced myself to get some shit done and my room is gettin there. things are in boxes.
i have learned that with moving, its okay to have many boxes. ive managed to cut my belongings in half once already since september and this time ive gotten rid of a quarter of my belonings. shit i dont need. my rooms in shambles but i have an order to it. clean and put shit away, pack for planting, sort cds and figure out what im selling to bryndis. buhhh, i have to be in kamtown by sunday. which means if spenny doesnt go to jasper to see SNFU then we'll hitch down friday or saturday. if he does go to see SNFU in jasper then ill catch a ride down with cheese and the crew on sunday. im afraid to go tree planting. but im excited. gah.
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[28 Apr 2008|12:50am] |
god. this weekend was ridiculous. saturday found me drunk at 230 in the afternoon and i continued being beligerent till i passed out at scottys at 3 am. awesome. i fell on my bike. busted my knee open on the pedal. and i had the most vicious headache today.
i've failed to comprehend the fact that april is coming to an end. rapidly. i have to pack my shit and vacate my room in this house by thursday. i have to be in kamloops and ready to plant by monday. please god let the snow stay for a few days.
but now i have this feeling again. being unsettled. up in the air. blah blah. im scared. i dont have a plan b. which is probably going to turn out to be my friend. because then ill have to stick with planting. im scared.
mega.
but i know this feeling will go as soon as i get my ass in gear and get doing shit.
to do this week:
taxes
pack
get shit to erins
last minute planting crap
bags from jeremy
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